I'd Spill My ♥ Out For You

I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!(:(: 


except karmei isnt there): but heres another pic just for her!;) 

<3! 

i miss my dearest BS soso much!!)’: i miss those days where we’d just go to the beach and hang! our sentosa trip was soso memorable..(‘: i really miss them!): its soso hard to all meet up nowadays with my work & their workload from school:’(..but i just really hope there will be another outing just like the one we had that time!!(: 

love you all from the very bottom of my heart!<3  

REEEALLY BORED:) 

dont mind me being vulgar in this post but im fucking tired of everything lately.

angst
confused
jealous
useless
fucked up
tired

exactly how iv been feeling the past few days. fuck all this seriously. to think things would get better..well, iv tried. i really have. & honestly, i have no fucking idea what else there is to do. every single thing i do seems to be making things worse even when i try to talk things out or reason things out. i just never knew things could become this bad. lying to myself that things would get better in less than a day but i was wrong. how much longer is all this gonna go on???..cause i gotta admit, i really cant take all this attitude and talk any longer. fuck. all i want is to have things back to normal or at least a slight bit better. is that so hard to ask for????..iv tried showing concern, tried gettin closer again, tried thinking of ways that will make things better, but all i get in return is false accusations and attitude. fucking hell its like everything i do is wrong.  
i can’t sleep well, can’t eat well, and every morning i wake up to the same thing. arn’t u tired of it??? cause i am.. thats why iv been trying so fucking hard to make things alright again. can’t you do the same please. not asking for much really.

 

my favourite bunch of <3s..(: 

Another weekend has past,& ahhh its still so long til school’s starting ):i know il surely regret saying all this, bout how much im wishing school would start! but thats only cause holidays are getting so fucking boring. with all my closest friends studying in their JCs..but give me maybe 2 weeks or less, il be taking all these words back and wishing for holidays :)
Damn it i think im getting more and more short tempered.lots more sensitive too. i dont know why too & i gotta admit, it really sucks.i tend to over think & worry my ass off for nothing. i ask myself repetitively if all this is worth it..but honestly, even i myself am not sure too. 

look at how fast you’ve changed..it surprises me too. honestly, i thought you were different.yes you. 

Happy belated valentines to all(: was exhausted last night and just simply had no mood to blog :p haha(: yesterday sure was fun!(: woke up to a surprise from a special someone when he turned up right outside my gate early in the morning!(‘: the plan was to head over to the beach first then to townn but we decided, the beach can wait another day (:(: hung around the mall for a couple of hours before going for lunch at hot tomatoes!<3 the food there was deeeeee-licious;) after lunch, we headed over to cineleisure to get movie tix(: i was really looking forward to watching the vow!! who knows how blur i could get, it only comes out on 12th april ): feelings cheated much :( hahaha:D but we watched safehouse & it was quite a thriller!(: Had a blast yesterday really (‘: 

I CAN’T WAIT FOR 5PM TO COME TODAYY(: then i can get ready to head out to meet my beloved ball sisters!(: & give jingles a surprise for her 17th birthdayyy<3 hope it all turns out well!^^ i miss you all soso much)’: with y’all all studying so hard in jc, its soso hard to meet up and all nowadays): but heyyys, if u ever wanna go out and study together, i could always make my way down with you guys okii??(: love you all to bits!!<3  ahhhh i cant wait for later already!!!!!:):) hehehe^^ 

 
BESTIES FOR LIFE<3 i love you girls from the bottom of my heart!(‘:  

been so caught up with work, id always be too tired to blog at all! ): anyways, its been like a week of continuous working shifts!! but its been fun since all my shifts are with people i know & love to work with<3 haha!;) 


Like this girl for example!!(: absolutely love workin with her!!:) heheee
tomorrow’s closing shift will be with her tooooo:D yay!<3 

Cant wait for japanese buffet lunch tomorrow!!;) i realise when people say they slim down whenever they work, it just doesnt seem to be the same for me!:p iv been eating non-stop especially when im working!!!! :p but oh wellll, cant resist the temptations! ;)

I miss my besties soso much):

Honestly, im soso scared to start school even though its in april!): Just the thought of starting over again really scares me:’( when i had to leave utahloy intl school and come back to singapore,it took me months to get used to the fact that im leaving all my closest friends)’: and now againn): but i guess this time it isnt that badd since we’l still get to meet up occasionally..(‘: but still!! i just really hope i find a really good group of friends like you girls in ngee ann poly!<3 lovelove!xox

shall go find a show to watch til i fall asleep now!(: hehe
Nights.  

so i guess this is how things are going to be from now on? :’( 

I dont know if i should be happy or sad bout the fact that i got into np’s buisness studies course. its my 2nd choice and well, i dont know, the thought of some of my close friends goin to sp but me alone at np, just sucks. really. & plus, i really wanted my first choice. What pisses myself off even more, is my results.If only i scored a 10 or below. fuck. id have much wider choices. & definitely get into my 1st choice since the cut off is 11. guess my 11 pointer was on the dot but just not quite enough.. :( 

ugh..sent in my appeal form already but slim chance really. :( shall head down to sp personally tmr with friends i guess? just to walk around and see.

im exceptionally happy for my friends who got wat they wanted tho!!<3 shout out to my ball sisterrssss<3 love u guys heaps!!!! & il be soso bored when u guys are all at school damn it:’(.. BUT I PROMISE TO GO VISIT U GUYS(: like after school alright?!???:):)  

Chinese new year this year has been good so far!!(: Reunion dinner as usual with my cousins and family and all was good!(: food was deeeelicious! 1st day of visiting was alright too(:(: hahah but goshh i guess iv put on like alot from all the cny goodies! simply cant resist them :p oh welll, just once a year of all these!!(; 

Me,bro & dad helped to bake our very own pineapple tarts and those peaut cookies!(:  
looks not bad right!!!;) it tastes good tooooo!!!:D:D: hahaha^^ so happy it wasnt a complete disaster:p

Few pics of 1st day of bai nian-ing:D hahah!:)

Mommy & I  (:  

With bro this time!(: heheh.

Just yesterday, headed out to meet my dearest banana & we decided to go take a walk at marina bay!!(: since she said there was some event!;) hahaha goshh walking in high heels for like 3 over hours CAN REALLY KILL!!!! we kept switching shoes since hers was giving her blisters too:p HAHAHAHAHA^^ We even walked all the way to from the floating platform to merlion to clarkquAy then finally to central!! By then, i already felt like just walking barefoot already!!!!Alrighhtttt, enjoy the pics!! (; 






theres lots more but its taking ages to upload just one pic): so oh well, will upload them on fb soon!!!!;) hehehe<3 

Just got back from work & im exhausteddd): i dono why but my knee is starting to act up again!:( it SUCKS!!! but anyways, enjoyed work today even though it was a lil boring but the girl i worked with was alright!(: heheh & surprise visits from some people really made my day!(: haha<3 

Sometimes i feel that you’re the only one who understands me(‘: even better than you know who..:p haha(; I could write you a whole long note here but i guess, whatever i type out is never enough to thank everything u’ve done for me.